Pui Ni = a hokkien term referring to (much) fat gained from drinking milk 🐷 (Taken with instagram)
Of whom I am just a steward. (Taken with instagram)
As I look at Titus everyday, and how much I have died to myself just to make sure he is given the best I can afford - not just financially, but physically & mentally as well - it speaks to me of how great God loves us as well.
Yet, I am always reminded that I do not own Titus… I am just a vessel used by God to bring him into this world and hand him the resources to explore a r/s with God - something he might, well, never choose on his own accord, it’s true.
I am truly afraid of becoming a parent who’s possessive and counts everything I have done for him… who imposes my thoughts, my unfulfilled dreams, my ideas, my visions, my baggage, my minute worldview upon him, and end up bringing him up as a man of great fear rather than of great faith.
And so… I can only pray that the Lord guides my lips, my hands and, most of all, my heart.
There is a huge feeling of inadequacy and lack, but when I think about how much He can reveal His strength through my weaknesses, I feel very hopeful and glad indeed!
With Titus doing absolutely nothing but asking for feeds n diaper changes these 2wks, sometimes I ask God if there is anything else I can look forward to anymore… But I remember that His timing is perfect and children are a blessing and a gift.
And someday, when someone else reaps the fruit of his life, I’ll be proud we were the ones who sowed these glorious seeds of laborious love.
Keep calm and PARENT on!!! Rawr!
@leninkoh bringing me out on a tenthdayofconfinement date! :)) (Taken with Instagram at Shaw Towers, Orchard Road)